Thursday, December 4, 2014

Working on it

So i have been trying to figure out why I am feeling the way I do.
Why do I get mad at people for silly things. Why am I so annoyed all the time excetera excetera.
So at first I thought it was simple. I am not giving myself enough me time. I am spread so thin doing things for others, work, volunteer group, my Children and my mother, that I have no me time. So wen someone says they would take care of something and they didn't,  and the task fell on me, I got mad.
However I couldn't shake this nagging feeling that this wasn't really the problem. Yes help would be nice, but there was another issue.
So a few days ago I was cleaning the house. My mother was in her room watching TV. She is very hard of hearing so her TV is usually up very high. I am not really sure what she was watching because I wasn't really paying attention. Suddenly the person on the TV said: "We are not present in our lives" Basically we are so distracted by what else we have going on we are not paying attention to the moment. Even when we are not busy with those thoughts we are usually on devices. Video games, social media and so forth. So that even at that time we are not really present.
BOOM out of nowhere there it was. This was (ummm let's face it "is") my problem. I am not present. I am constantly thinking of what I need to do next. And when I am relaxing I'm playing a game on my phone, catching up on social media or watching TV.
Now I am not saying those things are bad, but they sure have a way of taking up more and more of your time.
So I have been working on being more present in all that I do, and to cut down on the electronics time. This is a lot harder then I thought it would be I must say.
We shall see if my mood improves :)

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